Personal and Private

I am so happy to be home. I was not surprised however that apprehension arose. In Katy I was buffeted somewhat from the 'norms" of my life. It was WONDERFUL to see my Barry. I wish he was home for good. However I am thankful for his job and know all has a purpose. This walk would be less fearful I believe if he were home. As a friend said in one of his emails to pray-ers.... "Patti is having to depend totally on God, which is a good thing." It was while talking to Barry and making decisions about how to handle my treatment dates that I realized just how private and personal this breast cancer is. No matter how loud I shout it, how much I share it in a blog, no matter how many people talk to me, no matter how many people are going through it now or have gone through it..... it remains a very personal and private event. All helps to each different degrees and I'm thankful and blessed for the opportunities. The fact that I have to depend on someone(s) to transport me to Houston for a treatment that will have me bald in a two to three weeks and sporting black/grey fingernails that will most likely fall off is not something that is easily shared with anyone... not even my husband. ( I was told by Dr. Murray that the chances of baldness and fingernail ailments are 100%) Okay... enough fiddle playing right? God is telling me to get over myself. He will walk with me and carry me when needed. He hasn't let me down yet and I have no reason to think He will ever let me down. Leslie Steele, my daughter in-law, came to our house while I was away and did an excellent job "spiffing" it up for me. It was a breath of  fresh air. I asked her if she would drive me over to M.D. Anderson for my first treatment and she graciously agreed. I owe her and many many others a debt that I can only repay by paying it forward and by praying blessings over their lives in God's name with whom all is possible.
Love all
Patti